Life is a Team Sport

Almost a year ago I started re-establishing a relationship with my father. It’s always been a sore point in my life because I always wanted him in my life but I didn’t know how to communicate my feelings when we didn’t see eye to eye. So I did what I learned which was to cut him out of my life. I used to do that to everyone in my life. Sitting with the unsettledness of conflict was too much for me so I would cut out people I cared about because I couldn’t manage those conflicted feelings. Those feelings were just too overwhelming for me.

I am learning to sit with the feelings and not react as much but I am still a work in progress. When you cut people out of your life you hurt them and they think you don’t care. I always cared but the feelings ruled over my sentiment for the person.

My father thought I didn’t care about him. I did but just didn’t know how to overcome this challenge. Little by little my father and I started talking. I learned to understand he in fact did love me. He has gotten to know me for who I truly am and it’s amazing what a year brings.

I am sitting in my condo because I have the best realtor there is, I had an incredible finance person, and I have a father who helped me. I am independent and taking help isn’t easy for me. But I am learning to receive. It feels vulnerable and uncharted territory.

My father has truly been there for me and helping to better navigate my finances. He is showing me that I am worthy of money. So I feel so blessed for everything that I have. But what’s so amazing about my condo is I have my father back in my life. So I sit on my couch in my new condo and realize life is a team sport. Sometimes you need to rely on others and their resources. And you need to be open enough to accept your good fortune that they are in your life. Thank you for letting me share.